(verse 1)
You stole every piece of my heart and then some
My love was a contest you’d clearly won
The lies that you told me I believed wholeheartedly
The money you stole from me I would have given free
But all that now has changed
I’ll never look at you the same
Things between us have grown strange
And you’re the one to blame
(chorus)
You’ve made me who I am
And I will never trust again
All the love that we shared
Came crashing in
You’ve made me who I am
And I will never trust again
Oh the love we had
Was the bitter end
(verse 2)
I wish that I could forget you or travel back in time
I wish I could bleach out my brain or just stop asking “Why?”
Like a knife through my heart it’s been ripped to shreds
No matter where you are I hear your voice in my head
You’ve changed me now
I’m strong yet weak, one and the same
Oh I’m the bitch now
And you’re the one to blame
(chorus)
You’ve made me who I am
And I will never trust again
All the love that we shared
Came crashing in
You’ve made me who I am
And I will never trust again
Oh the love we had
Was the bitter end
(bridge)
I told you that I loved you
Told you over and over again
Muted words on deaf ears
Strained voices; clenched hands
You lied to me
And I won’t forgive that
You made me feel guilty
Where’s the God in that?
You’re such a hypocrite!
Lying for your desires
I hope you get what you want
Cause you’re such a good liar
(chorus x2)
You’ve made me who I am
And I will never trust again
All the love that we shared
Came crashing in
You’ve made me who I am
And I will never trust again
Oh the love we had
Was the bitter end
© Spiritual Animystical
MEANING:
This is about trust. I trusted a person and he committed the ultimate breach of that trust.
As a divorcee, I always dread the question when I meet strangers... "Are you married?" What response could I possibly give that I end up on the good side of? Because if I just say I'm divorced, that means I'm the product of a failed marriage so there must be something wrong with me. If I say I'm single... well that just doesn't sound right either. A mid to late 30's woman who's never been married? I must be some kind of troll or something.
So what do I say? Because as soon as I say "I'm divorced" the usual responses happen. "Oh I'm so sorry about that." Why? I'm not. So that is my response. "Why? I'm not."
I was stuck in a marriage with a man that was a user, an emotional abuser and liked to use every excuse in the book to get his way. And when that wouldn't work, he defaulted to God told him to. God told him to buy a drum set. God told him to buy a computer. God told him this. God told him that. Because if I went against God, I was A) a hypocrite, and B) going to be judged for it. He didn't like it so much when I turned the tables and said "God told me to buy a diamond." His response was "Are you really sure that's from God?" Yes, because only he could talk to the Almighty.
"Why? I'm not!"
This is a song that I wrote about it... and trust me, it's very far from being a "Christian" song. But I wrote this in an effort to get a lot of the frustration I had after my failed marriage, and deal with the emotions that were running rampant through my brain. This is one of many songs that I wrote... maybe I'll share those with you too... not sure yet.
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