Some days I just don't want to wake up
Because when the pain hits, it's like a grappling hook
Pulling me deeper; ever so deeper
Into a chasm I lack the strength to climb out of
They say in time the pain will pass
But every day is a new kick in the ass
Telling me "Haha I one-upped your score"
It will never be as it was before
I drag another puff from my cigar
Every time noting this is what she died for
But every inhale gets me closer to her
This isn't the world that I signed up for
Just when I think there were no more tears to score
It wells up in my eyes and my vision distorts
It's hard to see through the muck of this place
I will never again see her face
My heart is barren and turned to ash
It withers in the wind and is gone in a flash
Like a butterfly caught in a hurricane
I'm just a stranded dog left out in the rain
Alone and lonely I cry havoc
Howl at the moon as if I'm rabid
The war rages on inside of me
This nightmare of which I'll never be free
© Spiritual Animystical
